many people believed sharing is caring, but for me, I think, SHARING IS SCARING...
Shout Box
(since Nov06)
Hidup-Hidup Di Bakar
Tiba-tiba depan mata
Menjelma kabus kaburi karma
Menghilangkan jejak tapak kehidupanku
Apa yang telah aku bina
Kini lenyap segala maknanya
Membuat ku hilang arah
Luka berdarah
Dan aku dibakar...
Kerna telah terlalu lama
Kita bersama kejar kejora
Ku sangkakan takdir kau dan aku sehala
Jauh sekali tanggapanku
Hilang seri muncul awan kelabu
Merampas segala yang dulu milik aku...
Hidup-hidup dibakar...
Sampai bilakah bila ?
Hidup penuh sengsara
Kau patukkan bisa di mata
Ketuk pahat di dada
Sampai bilakah bila ?
Azab akan terasa
Aku terkurung dalam penjara
Kamar yang kita bina
Dan aku di bakar...
Kerna telah terlalu lama
Kita bersama kejar kejora
Ku sangkakan takdir kau dan aku sehala
Jauh sekali tanggapanku
Hilang seri muncul awan kelabu
Merampas segala yang dulu milik aku...
Hidup-hidup dibakar...
Harapan terbakar
Menyala-nyala
Api membara
Hangus di bakar
Di dalam kamar...
blog ditutup!
Monday, October 31, 2005
sila ambil perhatian. mulai hari ini, blog asmardiyam akan ditutup buat sementara waktu bagi membolehkan kawan-kawan menyambut hari raya dengan lebih sempurna. ini bertujuan bagi mengelakkan kawan-kawan asyik mengadap blog semasa hari raya. blog ini akan kembali seperti biasa pada 6 november 2005 (raya ke-4).
dikesempatan ini, asmardiyam ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidulfitri maaf zahir batin kepada insan-insan yang pernah singgah diblog ini. gf zampeada farrah cibilz iyas lizoss
bagi pemilik kenderaan nombor pendaftaran bermula dengan k, selamat kembali ke negeri kelahiran anda. dan bagi yg lain pula, selamat datang ke negeri kedah negeri bersejarah!
disini asmardiyam uploadkan takbir raya khusus untuk zampeada yang beraya diperantauan.
wish list hari raya nie... aku nak dapatkan duit raya sebanyak mungkin untuk: 1. repair motor 2. tukar handset 3. repair digicam 4. tukar tali jam 5. tukar bateri jam 6. tukar bateri motor 7. makan kfc 8. makan McD 9. belanja awek& member 10.bayar hutang mak
kenapa aku ada wish list macam nie? sbb aku masih takde idea nk tulis... mayb minat memblog aku dah berkurang...
mungkin jangan paksa diri boleh dijadikan moral...
ini adalah satu plan proaktif bagi membersihkan reputasi aku yang telah tercalar... bagi sesapa yang membaca entri ini, aku memintak jasa baik korang untuk komen, shoutbox @ email aku tajuk lagu @pun penyanyi lagu kt atas ini. ini utk membuktikan castpost blh upload lagu... [ kalau xdengar pun bagitau aku jugak! ] tolong yer...
sms to zampeada : dengar x? kalau dengar, musti ada samting rong masa zampeada upload. try la upload skali lagi...
baru je aku nak rasa sronok surf ternet nie, tapi dh tension balik bila aku terdelete icon "show desktop". aduh tensionnya. camna nk bagi ade balik ha? aku dh cari kat "recycle bin". tp xda kt situ la... aku slalu guna la icon tu, xkn aku nak format pc aku gara-gara kerana sebijik icon yg kecik tu? atau aku just "repair" je?. masalahnya, aku xde cd installer win XP....
petang tadi, dalam kol 4 lebih, balik je dari aloq staq, aku terus tertido. letih. tetiba bunyi tepon. aku angkat. tak sangka gf yg tepon. tetiba rasa happy. almaklumlah, lama tak tepon. keadaan kewangan yang tak mengizinkan. tetiba je hati rasa sayu bila gf mintak maaf sbb tak dpt bersama aku masa aku dalam kesusahan. (bila la pulak aku susah?). tapi takpe. aku cuba ubah topik utk mengelakkan hati aku jadi semakin sayu. aku dan gf pun borak la.. bla.. bla.. bla..
bila ada satu part, aku ckp... aku : orang, tahun nie raya biasa aje. maklumlah, orang ni susah. sebatang kara je.. gf : orang pun sama. sebatang kara gak... aku : jap. jap. nak betulkan ayat awak. awak tu bukannya sebatang kara, tapi seekor kera. gf : hah? aku & gf : hah.. hah.. hah.. [ gelak sampai tak egt dunia ]
malula kalau entri nie ada org baca. jatuh la saham aku, org dah tau aku ada awek.
lega rasanya bila dah setelkan semua kerja. ringan sikit kepala hotak nie yang pernah serabut bagai nak qrak! sampai aku tak ada idea langsung nak tulis kat blog nie. bukan aku xmau apdet, tapi, bila akuOL aje, langsung xada idea. kosong. nak tulis apa pun aku xtau. tapi, dalam temoh masa 24 jam aje, aku dah tukar 2 shoutbox. yang mula tu, aku pakai dalam 2 jam aje, pastu aku tukar yg baru. shoutbox yg first tu, sempatlah nurul shout. sape nurul tu, aku xkenal. baru 14 tahun, dah ada blog sendri. celik IT tol. terima kasih nurul coz lalu-lalang kat sini. tak sangka, ada jugak insan singgah kat sini.... buat orang menyokong blog ini dari belakang, very big sowi la yer... xde idea nk tulis....
happy birthday to poja ngan relyza. member bisness aku masa kat syarikat ABIT. skarang ni korang dah pun 22 tahun. ko slalu countdown bufday ko kt blog FS. pasni ko nk watpe lak? ko nk countup ke? yang poja dah pun nak kena korban. bila? aku tak pasti... ko pulak relyza, kalau nak kena korban, jangan lupa pulak jemput aku...
hari pertama posa. pergh letih, bangun tidor pun dah pukul 6.45 petang, just cuci muka aja.
sebelum tertidur, aku pasang lagu mockingbird nyanyian eminem. tetiba aku layan lagu tu sampai tertidur. best jugak. 1 tu aje lagu yang aku layan hari nie. aku set play repeat kt winamp aku.
nie lirik yang aku sempat cari bermula selepas terawikh sehingga sekarang dengan keadaan dial up yg mengive up!
Yeah I know sometimes Things may not... always make sense to you right now But hey, what daddy always tell you? Straiten up little soldier Stiffen up that upper lip What you cryin' about? You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom And I know you miss your dad When I'm gone But I'm tryin' to give you the life that I never had I can see you're sad Even when you smile Even when you laugh I can see it in your eyes Deep inside, you wanna cry Cuz you're scared I ain't there, Daddy's with you in your prayers No more cryin', wipe them tears Daddy's here, no more nightmares We gon' pull together through it We gon' do it Lainie, uncle's crazy ain't he Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it We're all we got in this world When it spins, when it swirls When it whirls, when it twirls Two little beautiful girls Lookin' puzzled, in a daze I know it's confusin' you Daddy's always on the move, mama's always on the news I try to keep you sheltered from it But somehow it seems The harder that I try to do that The more it backfires on me All the things growin up as daddy that he had to see Daddy don't want you to see But you see just as much as he did We did not plan it to be this way Your mother and me But things have got so bad between us I don't see us ever being together Ever again Like we used to be when we was teenagers But then of course everything always happens for a reason I guess it was never meant to be But it's just something we have no control over And that's what destiny is But no more worries Rest your head and go to sleep Maybe one day we'll wake up and this'll all just be a dream
CHORUS: Now hush little baby don't you cry Everything's gonna be alright Stiffen that upper lip up Little lady, I told ya Daddy's here to hold ya Through the night I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why We fear how we feel inside It may seem a little crazy Pretty baby But I promise: mama's gonna be alright
It's funny I remember back one year when daddy had no money Mommy wrapped the christmas presents up and stuck em' under the tree And said some of em' were from me Cuz daddy couldn't buy em' I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night cryin' Cuz daddy felt like a bum See daddy had a job But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom And at the time Every house that we lived in Either kept getting broken into and robbed Or shot up on the block And your mom was saving money for you in a jar Tryin' to start a piggy bank for you so that you could go to college Almost had a thousand dollars Til someone broke in and stole it And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama's heart And it seemed like everything was starting to fall apart Mom and dad was arguin' alot so mama moved back on the Chalmers in a flat One bedroom appartment And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novara And that's when daddy went to California with his CD And met Dr Dre, and flew you and mama out to see me But Daddy had to work You and mama had to leave me Then you started to see daddy on the TV And mama didn't like it And you an' Lainie were too young to understand it Papa was a Rolling Stone, mama developed a habit And it all happened to fast for either one of us to grab it I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud Now I'm sittin' in this empty house Just reminicin lookin' at your baby pictures it just trips me out To see how much you both have grown it's almost like your sisters now Wow, guess you pretty much are And daddy's still here Lainie I'm talking to you too Daddy's still here I like the sound of that, yeah It's got a ring to it don't it Shh... mama's only gone for the moment
Chorus And if you ask me to, daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird I'ma give you the world I'ma buy a diamond ring for you I'ma sing for you I'll do anything for you to see you smile And if that mocking bird don't sing and that ring don't shine I'ma break that birdy's neck I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya And make em eat every carat, don't fuck with dad
Download : Eminem - Mockingbird mp3 [ Right click and 'Save target as...' to download the file ]
argh! skrg ni aku kt cc city plaza alor star! mai sini semata mata nak beli vcd tak original. tapi malangnya, masuk aja city plaza nie, aku tgk kedai vcd tak original ni kena rush. dengan sapa aku taktau. ramai la yang menyebok termasuk aku dok tengok kt luar. aku dah agak dah. maknanya seluruh kedai vcd tak original tutup. bila aku raund dari tingkat bawah sampai atas, ramalan aku tepat! melepaslah aku nak beli cd. aku nak belipun sebab nak layan waktu sahor aje. so, aku pun datang la kat sini. nie cc pabret aku.
sms to cibil: banyak ko punya duit beli cd ori... aku beli cd tak ori aje. 10ringgit dapat 3 citer. kalau citer tak clear, siap boleh tukar!
entri ini aku xmau tulis ekceli (cis, aku ciplak word farah!). tapi aku dipaksa oleh si sibil tu! argh! aku xmau tulis gak. walaupun aku tulis, aku langsung xnak tulis tajuk yang dia suruh! padan muka dia!
oklah, lagi 4 minggu @ 30 hari, kita akan berhari raya. selamat hari raya aku ucapkan. kepada kawan-kawan (cis, ayat macam ade je org nak baca blog aku nih!) aku memohon angpau dan duit raya bersempena status aku ni yg masih menganggur.
sms to sibil: derkaha x aku? ko suruh wish posa, aku wish qaya!
sila ambil perhatian: niat aku nak tulis entri ini pada hari kelmarin (02/10/05)
Happy Birthday farrah, aku memang xlupa birthday ko sbb aku slalu la jugak login kt friendster tuh.
ni lah rahsia yang ko nak tau tu... kelmarin ko ade terima topup rm 5 tak? kalau ada, akulah penghantarnya. jangan terkezut pulak. aku memang dah kering kontang. tak mampu aku nak beli hadiah memahal. aku tau ko memang perlukan kredit tu untuk say thank pada sesapa yg wish birthday ko... tol tak?
ko tau awat aku lambat publish entri ni? aku try upload gambar ko kt blog aku ni. tp speed ternet ni macam si arnab racing ngan kura-kura la pulak. dia syoknya berenti kt tengah jalan pastu tido sampai mimpi. What I'm currently doing? waiting for this shit thing completely (ciplak ayat sibil) uploading? ape ape pun, kalau ko nak tengok gambar tu, ko boleh tengok kt fotopages ko, gambar tu pun aku cilok kt fotopages ko jugak. jangan marah, ko memang dah tua pun! happy birthday for one more time.
nie aku dah upload gambar dah. mampos la aku ngan gf aku bila dia nengok gambar nie! [ diupload pada 10/10/2005 1:00pm ]
sms to sibil: sakit hatinya aku tengok blog ko. ternet tengah slow, ko siap bleh upload gambar LOST tu! LOST tu filem baru erk?
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